we do not see things as they are; we see things as we are.


Thoughts, Ideas, Experiences and Emotions from Quandaries of the Author

Friday, November 24, 2006

My Braces are Back

i wore braces in h.s., 2nd to 4th yr in particular... but after it was removed, i always forget to wear my retainer and it is the reason why there are spaces occured between my teeth...

but not anymore, early this morning... i am now wearing braces! again...

Wednesday, November 22, 2006

I Made Up My Mind

I Chose Sofitel Philippine Plaza, why? They have accomodating employees, good facilities... very promising? nah! coz they are established already!

I know i prefer hotels in makati area before, for much accesible purposes, but, i am much more convinced and attracted to the system of Sofitel...

Tuesday, November 14, 2006

Confused... or Indecisive?

I made it to Sofitel... i passed 4 interviews and i'm just waiting for the schedule of orientation.

yesterday, i am surprised that Manila Penninsula called me, Ms. Maita asked me to come to their office today at 4pm.

at first i asked her if we can re-schedule the interview because i have a reco this day, but she replied, she will just set aside my resume, the i just said, "ok, thank you" but after few minutes i called her back and told her i'm will come to the interview.

I'm having a little problem now...

I like Sofitel because....

I already passed the interviews

I made some friends already

I know it is a good Hotel


I'm gonna have problems going there and coming home as well...

It's too far from my home, and i don't know the routes.

I want Manila Penninsula because

Obviously it is one of known hotel

I receive positive feedbacks

the place is accesible

i just really want there..


If i chose Sofitel

for 3 months or less, i'm gonna have difficult time for time travel and a little bit not fulfilled because honestly sofitel is just my second choice next to manila penn it's just that they called me first.

If i chose Manila Penninsula

I don't know what to say to sofitel


what ever i will choose i hope it will not affect me in the future...

Saturday, November 11, 2006

Practicum Interview... never tought of it seriously not until yesterday

Part of being in College is to take a Practicum or On the Job Training, but i never thought of it seriously because given the fact that we are still students, i thought that they would be more linient and considerate in hiring us addition to it are the experience of my friends who already took they're practicum, yes, you might be declined but you can apply to other places and if you passed an interview, great! sometimes there are required examinations but they say it's very easy!

I had my first interview in Oakwood Premiere Hotel last September 20, it is going smoothly but when the interviewer asked me when i could start and i replied "on October 20" i was then declined because they need an immediate practicumer, I was supposed to have a 2nd interview in Makati Shangri La last September 30 but i wasn't able to attend it because of the typhoon milenyo and i feel sad about that.

I'm running out of time because i have to complete a 550 duty hours and i shoul finish it atleast before 1st or 2nd week of February, i'm already loosing hope because most of the Hotels in Makati and Edsa have no vacant slots for practicumers anymore, and i'm hesitating to apply to Hotels in Manila because i don't know the routes there.

I tried my luck in passing my resume in Manila Penninsula, Aim Conferrence Center in Makati and in Sofitel in Manila

I called Manila Penninsula last Thursday morning for follow up of my application but the reply to me in the HRD ws "i wasn't able to make in the first batch and the next batch will be inerviewed in December and my resume was considered for that batch", I'm not expecting a call from AIM this week because Hazel, a friend who took a practicum there told me that the HR manager told her that she can't able to interview or call a practicumer this week because shed has some work to finish because she took a pregnancy leave, therefore she can only interview practicumers next week.

Luckily in the same they, in the afternoo i recieve a call from Sofitel and they want me to have interview me the next day 8:30 am.

Friday, November 10, I leave our house at 6:00 am because i am afraid to be late in my interview, since there was no traffic and Mang Romy drives fast, i was able to make it there for about leass than an hour, i waited in the parking for more than 1 hour before i can get inside, at 8:30 along with other applicants we are required to answer a questionaire first, all in all we are 20+ applicants, one by one we are interviewed, the interview finished before 12nn, they told us to go back at 3pm for the next interview, we are all surpired to hear that because we are not expecting that there will be another interview, but on the other hand we happy because that means we passed the first interview, I went to MOA to eat, but right after finishing my meal, i receive a message from Ms. Carol of HR Department that i needed to go back ASAP for my next interview, i rushed back to the Hotel, i am again surprised to know that there are others who are asked to go back but the others are instructed to go home and wait for a call, at 1pm the interview started but after 2 or 3 persons interviewed, the interview was move to 3pm because the interviewer will be having a meeting. we waited for an hour or more, at 3pm the interview is resumed, when its my turn i was asked to choose a department and since kitchen department is full already, and since Christmas is near i chose housekeeping so i was sent to housekeeping department to be interviewed by the House keeping Manager, she told me that my english is good and asked me if i write, but to cut it short she gave me high grades in my interview because she told me that i have a good potential but i should consider treating my pimples, because if i was able to pass the last interview for that day, i may not pass the interview with the GM just because of pimple marks, she also taught me what to answer to the next interviewer which is the head of HRD and she emphasize that if my pimples and pimples marks was noticed i should answer that i am under treatment already, i am very thankful to her, but after that i realized that what will i learn in the housekeeping department, so i asked Sr. Joseph of HR department if i can be assigned to another department but he delclined it, so i just wait for the next interview, at 4pm they asked us to be in the HR department to have the interview, but after 1 applicant was interviewed a guest of the HRD Head came, so we are asked to wait, we waited for so long that we are already allowed to have a free dinner at the employee's cafeteria, at 6:30 the interview resumed, an applicant was able to got in first so we waited for our turn, when he got out of the room, we are asking him what whas asked and if the interviwer is nice but before he was able to answer it i was called to be next to be interviwed.... it was quite short interview but i was relieve when she read my resume and the results of other interviews i had, then she asked me what department i really liked to be in, i said "kitchen" and she erased Housekeeping department and wrote "CULINARY", i was so happy when i came out of the room. all in all we are 8 applicants left that was asked to wait for the schedule of the last interview with the GM. When i got back home i was so happy that there is just one last interview.

But when i woke up this morning, i was feeling so nervous and down. I am worried what if they will not call me anymore for the last interview because of pimples or if will make it to be interviewed by the GM what if she droppes me because of the pimples and i a made it there, will i not dissapoints them... oh GOD pls help me...

Wednesday, November 08, 2006

friend, love... rejected!

friends are part of our life, we can't survive without having any friends at all, as everyone knows "no man is an island".

next to our family are our friends, to others friends come first.

they are the one who makes us laugh when we feel down, we can run to them when we are in trouble, they serve as a shoulder to cry on.

they accept us for who we are, the whole us and vice versa.

because of that, many fell in love with their friends, including me.

a close friend txted me that someone had reminded him of the person that was used to be his friend, and he fall for that friend but it was rejected, then... i remebered my same experience.

risking the friendship that was built from laughs and tears through the time spent together.

not only once but twice, i fell for a friend, not only to a friend... but to a best friend as well.

it is in h.s. whe i first fell for a friend, it was kinda cheesy... (sori) i fell because i think he looks good (back then, not anymore) he is nice, he is smart and skillful, as if a complete package with a bonus pouty lips (hmm... pasulong kang!?! LOL!) like a typical teen who fell in love, i always think of him... dream of him! (eeew!) but i'm aware that he can't love someone like me... cause he is straight and uhmm... a definite bunny! (feeling!) so i i'm not that affected when he rejected my feelings for him, but we stayed friends... but i feel jealous when he has a new girl friend (LOL!) but that was it.

the next time i fell for a friend was now in college... many people knows it, i fell for him because, he is nice... thought he accepts me for who i am and he became my best (ooops! just reminiscing ok!?!) but like the scenario before, i know that he can't love me back, i know where i stand, i don't know what came to my mind the time when i admitted it to him, i don't know where i got the nerve to do it. from that moment on everything changes....

i know i'm responsible to that changes... yes, i did something but he must admit he did something as well... that was past, we both move on to whatever happened next.

i just feel sorry that i wasn't able to rebuild the friendship like it was used to be... i regret it so much... (sigh)

Tuesday, November 07, 2006

Work by Jimmy Eat World

by Jimmy Eat World
If you only once would let me
Only just one time
Then be happy with the consequence
With whatever's gonna happen tonight
Don't think we're not serious
When's it ever not
The love we make is give and it's take
I'm game to play along
All I can say I shouldn't say
Can we take a ride?
Get out of this place
While we still have time
oh oh, oh oh oh
oh oh, oh oh oh
All the best DJs are saving
Their slowest song for last
When the dance is through
Its me and you
Come on would it really be so bad
The things we think might be the same
But I won't fight for more
Its just not me to wear it on my sleeve
Count on that for sure
All I can sayI shouldn't say
Can we take a ride?
Get out of this place
While we still have time
You want to take a ride?
Get out of this place
While we still have time
Yeah - We still have time
oh oh (ahhhhhhhh)
oh oh (ahhhhhhhh)
oh oh (ahhhhhhhh)
oh oh (ahhhhhhhh)
Can't say I was never wrong
But some blame rests on you
Work and play they're never okay
To mix the way we do
All I can say
I shouldn't say
Can we take a ride?
Get out of this place
While we still have time
You want to take a ride?
Get out of this place
While we still have time
We still have time
oh oh, oh oh oh
oh oh, oh

Life laws... learn from it.. read it.. - from Gabby

Life Law #1: You either get it or you don't.Strategy: Become one of those who gets it.It's easy to tell these people apart. Those who"get it" understand how things work and have astrategy to create the results they want. Thosewho don't are stumbling along looking puzzled, andcan be found complaining that they never seem toget a break.You must do what it takes to accumulate enoughknowledge to "get it." You need to operate withthe information and skills that are necessary towin. Be prepared, tune in, find out how the gameis played and play by the rules.In designing a strategy and getting theinformation you need — about yourself, people youencounter, or situations — be careful from whomyou accept input. Wrong thinking andmisinformation can seal your fate before you evenbegin.

Life Law #2: You create your own experience.Strategy: Acknowledge and accept accountabilityfor your life. Understand your role in creatingresults.You cannot dodge responsibility for how and whyyour life is the way it is. If you don't like yourjob, you are accountable. If you are overweight,you are accountable. If you are not happy, you areaccountable. You are creating the situations youare in and the emotions that flow from thosesituations.Don't play the role of victim, or use past eventsto build excuses. It guarantees you no progress,no healing, and no victory. You will never fix aproblem by blaming someone else. Whether the cardsyou've been dealt are good or bad, you're incharge of yourself now.Every choice you make — including the thoughts youthink — has consequences. When you choose thebehavior or thought, you choose the consequences.If you choose to stay with a destructive partner,then you choose the consequences of pain andsuffering. If you choose thoughts contaminatedwith anger and bitterness, then you will create anexperience of alienation and hostility. When youstart choosing the right behavior and thoughts —which will take a lot of discipline — you'll getthe right consequences.

Life Law #3: People do what works.Strategy: Identify the payoffs that drive yourbehavior and that of others.Even the most destructive behaviors have a payoff.If you did not perceive the behavior in questionto generate some value to you, you would not doit. If you want to stop behaving in a certain way,you've got to stop "paying yourself off" for doing it.Find and control the payoffs, because you can'tstop a behavior until you recognize what you aregaining from it. Payoffs can be as simple as moneygained by going to work to psychological payoffsof acceptance, approval, praise, love orcompanionship. It is possible that you are feedingoff unhealthy, addictive and imprisoning payoffs,such as self-punishment or distorted self-importance.Be alert to the possibility that your behavior iscontrolled by fear of rejection. It's easier notto change. Try something new or put yourself onthe line. Also consider if your need for immediategratification creates an appetite for a smallpayoff now rather than a large payoff later.

Life Law #4: You cannot change what you do notacknowledge.Strategy: Get real with yourself about life andeverybody in it. Be truthful about what isn'tworking in your life. Stop making excuses andstart making results.If you're unwilling or unable to identify andconsciously acknowledge your negative behaviors,characteristics or life patterns, then you willnot change them. (In fact, they will only growworse and become more entrenched in your life.)You've got to face it to replace it.Acknowledgment means slapping yourself in the facewith the brutal reality, admitting that you aregetting payoffs for what you are doing, and givingyourself a no-kidding, bottom-line truthfulconfrontation. You cannot afford the luxury oflies, denial or defensiveness.Where are you now? If you hope to have a winninglife strategy, you have to be honest about whereyour life is right now. Your life is not too badto fix and it's not too late to fix it. But behonest about what needs fixing. If you lie toyourself about any dimension of your life, anotherwise sound strategy will be compromised.

Life Law #5: Life rewards action.Strategy: Make careful decisions and then pull thetrigger. Learn that the world couldn't care lessabout thoughts without actions.Talk is cheap. It's what you do that determinesthe script of your life. Translate your insights,understandings and awareness into purposeful,meaningful, constructive actions. They are of novalue until then. Measure yourself and othersbased on results — not intentions or words.Use any pain you have to propel you out of thesituation you are in and to get you where you wantto be. The same pain that burdens you now could beturned to your advantage. It may be the verymotivation you need to change your life.Decide that you are worth the risk of takingaction, and that your dreams are not to be soldout. Know that putting yourself at risk may bescary, but it will be worth it. You must leavebehind the comfortable and familiar if you are tomove onward and upward.

Life Law #6: There is no reality, only perception.Strategy: Identify the filters through which youview the world. Acknowledge your history withoutbeing controlled by it.You know and experience this world only throughthe perceptions that you create. You have theability to choose how you perceive any event inyour life, and you exercise this power of choicein every circumstance, every day of your life. Nomatter what the situation, you choose yourreaction, assigning meaning and value to an event.We all view the world through individual filters,which influence the interpretations we giveevents, how we respond, and how we are respondedto. Be aware of the factors that influence the wayyou see the world, so you can compensate for themand react against them. If you continue to viewthe world through a filter created by past events,then you are allowing your past to control anddictate both your present and your future.Filters are made up of fixed beliefs, negativeideas that have become entrenched in yourthinking. They are dangerous because if you treatthem as fact, you will not seek, receive orprocess new information, which undermines yourplans for change. If you "shake up" your beliefsystem by challenging these views and testingtheir validity, the freshness of your perspectivecan be startling.

Life Law #7: Life is managed; it is not cured.Strategy: Learn to take charge of your life andhold on. This is a long ride, and you are thedriver every single day.You are a life manager, and your objective is toactively manage your life in a way that generateshigh-quality results. You are your own mostimportant resource for making your life work.Success is a moving target that must be trackedand continually pursued.Effective life management means you need torequire more of yourself in your grooming,self-control, emotional management, interactionwith others, work performance, dealing with fear,and in every other category you can think of. Youmust approach this task with the most intensecommitment, direction and urgency you can muster.The key to managing your life is to have astrategy. If you have a clear-cut plan, and thecourage, commitment and energy to execute thatstrategy, you can flourish. If you don't have aplan, you'll be a stepping stone for those who do.You can also help yourself as a life manager ifyou manage your expectations. If you don't requiremuch of yourself, your life will be of poorquality. If you have unrealistic standards, thenyou are adding to your difficulties.

Life Law #8: We teach people how to treat us.Strategy: Own, rather than complain about, howpeople treat you. Learn to renegotiate yourrelationships to have what you want.You either teach people to treat you with dignityand respect, or you don't. This means you arepartly responsible for the mistreatment that youget at the hands of someone else. You shapeothers' behavior when you teach them what they canget away with and what they cannot.If the people in your life treat you in anundesirable way, figure out what you are doing toreinforce, elicit or allow that treatment.Identify the payoffs you may be giving someone inresponse to any negative behavior. For example,when people are aggressive, bossy or controlling —and then get their way — you have rewarded themfor unacceptable behavior.Because you are accountable, you can declare therelationship "reopened for negotiation" at anytime you choose, and for as long as you choose.Even a pattern of relating that is 30 years oldcan be redefined. Before you reopen thenegotiation, you must commit to do so from aposition of strength and power, not fear andself-doubt.

Life Law #9: There is power in forgiveness.Strategy: Open your eyes to what anger andresentment are doing to you. Take your power backfrom those who have hurt you.Hate, anger and resentment are destructive, eatingaway at the heart and soul of the person whocarries them. They are absolutely incompatiblewith your own peace, joy and relaxation. Uglyemotions change who you are and contaminate everyrelationship you have. They can also take aphysical toll on your body, including sleepdisturbance, headaches, back spasms, and evenheart attacks.Forgiveness sets you free from the bonds ofhatred, anger and resentment. The only way to riseabove the negatives of a relationship in which youwere hurt is to take the moral high ground, andforgive the person who hurt you.Forgiveness is not about another person who hastransgressed against you; it is about you.Forgiveness is about doing whatever it takes topreserve the power to create your own emotionalstate. It is a gift to yourself and it frees you.You don't have to have the other person'scooperation, and they do not have to be sorry oradmit the error of their ways. Do it for yourself.

Life Law #10: You have to name it before you canclaim it.Strategy: Get clear about what you want and takeyour turn.Not knowing what you want — from your major lifegoals to your day-to-day desires — is not OK. Themost you'll ever get is what you ask for. If youdon't even know what it is that you want, then youcan't even ask for it. You also won't even know ifyou get there!By being specific in defining your goal, thechoices you make along the way will be moregoal-directed. You will recognize which behaviorsand choices support your goals — and which do not.You will know when you are heading toward yourgoal, and when you are off track.Be bold enough to reach for what will truly fillyou up, without being unrealistic. Once you havethe strength and resolve enough to believe thatyou deserve what it is that you want, then andonly then will you be bold enough to step up andclaim it. Remember that if you don't, someone elsewill.

Love or Just Pitty?!? - gosh... result of an insomnia attack

hmmm... i've known lots of people who reconciled with their gf/bf, but i'm definetely sure that some of them are just out of awa... (sobbing?!?) i don't mean to sound mean, but, don't you think it's unfair that we consider reconcilling with our x just because they made some nasty, humilating, pa-awa and so on out of them selves? don't get me wrong i know relationships consist of different things/feelings like care, pitty and etc. but we commit ourselves into relationships because we love the person who offers it. if the love is gone (for my own opinion) what's the reason to keep it going? i'm not expert in relationships, i've been through it several times... and yet i ended up a failure to it, but... my point here is why bother yourself getting back with your x if you just feel sorry for what is happening to him/her but deep inside of you... you don't have the right love to be his/her bf/gf again addittion to it... you want to move on already..., it is the person who is responsible for his/her own action, if you can move on why doesn't he/she can? well... if you think that the acceptance wasn't in his/her head yet... maybe you still have a part there, maybe your showing to much attetion to him/her... yah know like the old things... but no string attach, your giving him/her more reason not to move on... ahhh what a heck... sorry if somebody can relate... honestly it just pop out of my mind... i can't sleep yet... INSOMNIA

Monday, November 06, 2006

anung petsa na!

miss daff! sabi mo 8:00 am! anung petsa na?!