we do not see things as they are; we see things as we are.


Thoughts, Ideas, Experiences and Emotions from Quandaries of the Author

Tuesday, September 26, 2006


sounds mushy... and CHEEZY... i guess, na forgive ko na sila... both Elaine, she maybe a Klepto, but it is a sickness..., so be it! and Mike, though he spread some false stories against me and some friends, some says his just insecure but i think he is just a person who tells exagerated stories and latter on, he cannot admit his mistakes... well... God Bless the two of them, i know this issues is not yet over, but i had forgiven them already... believe it or not!

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

things are still getting into my nerves but IT HAS TO BE PUT TO END

pag nagsasalita ako, nagiging issue at madaldal ako pero pag tumatahimik ako, nagiging issue pa rin at plastik naman ako! saan ako lulugar?

kahit nung dati nag sasalita ako lagi, marami paring di nakaka intindi at worst, di nakakakilala sa akin, i decided na better keep my mouth shut! still have the same effect but i'm on the SAFE SIDE! not gonna say anything about this issue anymore, kahit kanino, even to the people involve and sa "na-involve" at nag papa involve, i'm not gonna clear something nor tell more bitterness

most people who knew me will laugh about this (maybe) because, them, knowing me... on safe side?! kelan pa?! hahaha! seriously, i've never on put my self on the safe side, it's either in position or in opposition... i always stand for what i believe but this time, SAFE MODE ang drama ko, maybe it's about time and there is always a first time!

at mapapagalitan me ni Mr. Enrico Sy!

dissapointments, bitterness, insensitivity

i thought things are getting better now... but i was wrong, just as i though that i could throw my hands up high and shout out loud from my lungs that I'ts over, things are getting worst... it was so dissapointing to know that people whom you trusted and believed to be youre friend, are doubting youre genuinity, youre acts and words, in short, they doesn't trust you... i hate to be bitter but since last month, things are so uncontrollable and deceiving, who won't feel bitter about having a scenario of uncertainty in life and without no one to hold on firmly... some people are so insensitive that they can't feel the bad thoughts and acts they're giving to others but if the situation turned on the otherway, duh!?! theyre so sensitive

Friday, September 15, 2006

Quite Relieve and Happy

i'm quite relieve and happy to know that i don't just have TRUE Friends that understands me and knows the real me, i also found new friends... and i believe that they will never be like the OTHERS, specially Meejay, i never thought that he (w/c i used to hate when i'm still a freshmen ;P) experienced the same thing as i do, i never expected that i could tell him my problem, given the fact that were not that close... well... that's life... too unpredictable! some people you used to laugh with, now are the source of youre tears, some people you used to hate are now the ones who cares for you...

Thanx Meejay for the comforting words, for listening and for understanding... T.C. Always! Luv Yah!

Wednesday, September 13, 2006

more bora pics!!!

Tuesday, September 12, 2006

just pop out of my mind

i'm gay, but i want to have child but no wife... just the baby!

if ever i'm gonna have a baby boy i will give him the name Andrei Christoff i don't know why i like that but if its a girl i will give her the name Maria Guadalupe derive from my mom and grandmom's name...


it's nice to know that ICT still doesn't block blogger

Monday, September 11, 2006

more pics at bora

Boracay 09-08-06

Saturday, September 09, 2006

Just Got Back Home

I just got back home from boracay, we stayed at Queen's Resort, i must say, this is such a unforgetable vacstion fro me! gonna post some more details and pictures ASAP, gonna take some rest first! CIAO!

Wednesday, September 06, 2006

exerpt from the movie Mean Girls

Calling somebody else fatwon't make you any skinnier.
Calling someone stupiddoesn't make you any smarter.
And ruining Regina George's lifedefinitely didn't make me any happier.
All you can do in life is try to solvethe problem in front of you.
-Cady Heron (Lindsey Lohan)

Tuesday, September 05, 2006

just as i thought

just as i thought i was bearing the heaviest problem... i cried so loud, i yelled for help, and a friend of mine didn't let me down, Maan called me several times, texted me several times and just to make sure i'm alright, she met me at SM pala pala direct from Edsa Shangrila, she arrived around 2:30 pm, from then to 6:00 all we did was to talk about my problems, as i arrived from home, i receive a txt message from her, knowing the fact that they have financial problem, having a large amount of debt, lack of money for tuition fee and now... much more heavier problem arises, her grandmother was diagnosed of ovarian cancer and in need of money for operation, if only i can help financially, but all i can do for the moment is to pray, to anyone who reads this now, please pray for her grand mother, with the blessings of god be with you all!


ala lang sobrang ala magawa

Monday, September 04, 2006

My One True Love

irony? or stupidity? FUNNY!

i don't know what's the best word to fit based on the reaction i'm getting... i want to laugh coz they act so strange and you know that every move they do is somehow restricted...? but on the other hand, i'm a little bothered coz, still, they don't get my point..., well... it's up to them... all i can react is "guys, can't you read between the lines?, use some brain cells, ok?! why take it literally...? you're still not getting the point!" well... whatever it is... I'M TIRED OF EXPLAINING!, what's the point of it? i mean, i know whatever you do, still you cannot push people to like and understand you, it's a matter of freewill...

Lolo Nelo's Restaurant

Proposed Logo for our Facilities

Sunday, September 03, 2006

Happy Birthday Hazel!

Happy Birthday Hazel!

Me and Hazel


They say im tactless..my tounge is sharp..-RUTHLESS,
They say im insensitive..i only speak for myself..-NUMB,
They say im wicked..i juDge everyone..evrythin..anyone..-JUDGEMENTAL.
I dont mean to be mean! i'm just being myself, Its me..


Your Quirk Factor: 56%
You're a pretty quirky person, but you're just normal enough to hide it.Congratulations - you've fooled other people into thinking you're just like them!

Open Minded

You Are 52% Open Minded
You are a very open minded person, but you're also well grounded.Tolerant and flexible, you appreciate most lifestyles and viewpoints.But you also know where you stand firm, and you can draw that line.You're open to considering every possibility - but in the end, you stand true to yourself.

Keys To My Heart

The Keys to Your Heart
You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved.
You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.
You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.
Your ideal relationship is comforting. You crave a relationship where you always feel warmth and love.
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.
In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

About Me - From Blogthings

Your Five Factor Personality Profile
You have high extroversion.You are outgoing and engaging, with both strangers and friends.You truly enjoy being with people and bring energy into any situation.Enthusiastic and fun, you're the first to say "let's go!"
You have high conscientiousness.Intelligent and reliable, you tend to succeed in life.Most things in your life are organized and planned well.But you borderline on being a total perfectionist.
You have high agreeableness.You are easy to get along with, and you value harmony highly.Helpful and generous, you are willing to compromise with almost anyone.You give people the benefit of the doubt and don't mind giving someone a second chance.
You have medium neuroticism.You're generally cool and collected, but sometimes you do panic.Little worries or problems can consume you, draining your energy.Your life is pretty smooth, but there's a few emotional bumps you'd like to get rid of.
Openness to experience:
Your openness to new experiences is high.In life, you tend to be an early adopter of all new things and ideas.You'll try almost anything interesting, and you're constantly pushing your own limits.A great connoisseir of art and beauty, you can find the positive side of almost anything.

Your Values Profile
You value loyalty a fair amount.You're loyal to your friends... to a point.But if they cross you, you will reconsider your loyalties.Staying true to others is important to you, but you also stay true to yourself.
You don't really value honesty.You do value getting your way, no matter what.And if a little lying is required to do that, no problem.A few white lies never hurt anyone (at least, that's what you tell yourself!)
You value generosity highly.So much so that you often put your own needs last.There's nothing wrong with having a caring heart...But you may want to rethink your "open wallet" policy.
You value humility a fair amount.You tend to be an easy going, humble person.But occasionally your ego takes over.You have a slight competitive streak - and the need to be the best.
You value tolerance highly.Not only do you enjoy the company of those very different from you...You do all that you can to seek it out interesting and unique friends.You think there are many truths in life, and you're open to many of them.

Your Birth Month is August
Ambitious and strong, you find it easy to be successful.You are brave and stubborn. No one's going to set your limits!
Your soul reflects: Strength, character, and devotion
Your gemstone: Peridot
Your flower: Poppy
Your colors: Orange, red, and light green

Saturday, September 02, 2006

Back on my Feet!

OMG! what a relief! Now i can say i'm back on my feet! whew! after a 1 week crying marathon and emotional postings... txt messages... i think i'm ok now!

well... my eyes are going back to it's normal size, i can eat 3 times a day again (w/c i think the saddest part now) but i just hope those emotional days will not affect my exams... darn! wag lang sa Quantec at Faci!

Thanx to the people... i mean TRUE FRIENDS who holds my back and understands me... it's a big thing for me!

i guess, you can't blame me for what i've felt, i know i'm a strong person, a natural fighter, but all kinds of problems occured in one whole week + dissapointment to people i believed was true + no one to burst out my feelings... who wouldn't feel insane?!

All i need is someone who i can talk to... someone who's real! some one who knows me enough to understand me!

i don't need someone who just agrees on what you say, i don't need who likes something because you like it, i don't need someone who thinks this way because it's what your thinking, but i thought it would make me feel bored and dumb, but to my surprise, it was a lesser evil for my situation! i'm was dumped with people who speak your words, but behind you, they destroy you, i thought i was too much plastic to hold my grudge to people i hated just for the sake of formality, avoid trouble and pakitang tao, but there are much worst than what i'm doing! Ikaw na ang kaibigan pag kaharap, ikaw rin ang masamang damo pag talikod!

well... enough of those, as i've said, i'm back on my feet... GO GO GO!