Happy for "Happy" but Sad for "Me"

I'm so glad that Happy was Hired for the Job that many desired to have, but Im a little lonely cause it means that the chances that we can still see each other again becomes so slim... maybe impossible...

I'm planning to apply for the same job but my height is not qualified...

I have lots of other good/ maybe better options but "as of now" i only desire to be with him.

.... Am i selfish?
.... Do I love myself?

.... with the feelings i have right now...

do i deserve to be loved?